|If not now - when?|
In going through all this - trying these new things, feeling out this new flow in my life, adjusting priorities and learning more about myself and what I need physically and mentally - I've been struggling to find a balance between these new components and other things that are important to me as well.
Meaning - my crafting has taken a little bit of a back burner lately. Listing things on Etsy - back burner. Personal art and exploration of new creative ideas - back burner. Blogging - back burner. This is not, in any way, something I want to be permanent. Not at all. But it is something I thought would fall back into place fairly easily once I got into this new groove of mine. Not so much.
I'm realizing that lifestyle changes kind of force entire lifestyle changes. I used to come home from work (Mon - Fri, 9 to 5-er - that's me), eat whatever was easy, take care of some house stuff, relax, spend some time in the craftroom or do whatever else tickled my fancy. Now - I leave work, go shopping (b/c healthy food does not generally come from a box - which requires more frequent grocery trips) come home, work out, shower, cook a healthy meal for me and Jon, clean up and by this time it's usually around at least 8:00 pm. And I am a night owl by nature - but working a day job and having these new priorities when I get home - it kind of works against that. I have to get my buns in bed by a reasonable hour or I will be wearing some serious cranky pants the next day. So that really leaves only a couple solid hours for housework and personal hobbies.
So, it's been a little bit of a struggle lately to find a new balance. I will not give up on taking care of myself. I feel so. much. better. With each workout I complete, I notice I can do more reps, or kick higher, or whatever - I'm getting stronger. That's such an amazing feeling. I have more energy. I feel leaner - more flexy. I feel good. I will not let that go.
But it is also very important to me to follow my creative dreams as well. I have big plans for my Etsy shop. I have so many great ideas for new product lines. I have a pile of awesome vintage stuff that's waiting to be photographed, etc. There are numerous personal projects I'd like to complete (my craft room sewing table for one!). I'd like to paint again. Get back to drawing. I have dreams, my lovelies, big dreams. And lots of them. I'm just havin a bit of a hard time getting everything to fall into its place around here.
But I'll get there.
So if you're wondering where I've been - I hope you understand. I'm trying. And I'll be back here on a more regular basis soon. But I hope, until then, you'll bear with me.<3
Have you ever gone through anything like this? Any personal struggles where the things that were most important in your life ended up competing against one another for the limited hours in your day - leaving you feel a little lost and unsure? Please comment - I'd love to hear what you have to say. Even you lurkers. ;) Introduce yourself and put your two cents in. How often do we get a chance to share completely solicited advice? Haha!
Also, I think in the future, instead of being so concerned about trying to make all the things I post here be business and crafty-related, or tutorials, or recipes, etc., I'd like for this to be a place I share more of myself. And also a place where we can help each other and be a space for comfort and support. The struggles. The accomplishments. Maybe get a bit more personal (I think this may be the most personal post I've ever done, actually. Eek!). After all - it is Flight of the Pook - and all of these things are a part of my "flight" - right?